Heaven With You

Honey, life on earth means nothing without you....all I want is to be in Heaven with you. There is nothing here without you.....my world has been turned upside down. I used to have life without you, but once I shared life with you I can't go back to how it used to be without you. Life is not the same....it seems meaningless, pointless, and empty. Why stay here when eternal life awaits me. What is the point of staying here? Who wouldn't want to give up this life on this earth for eternal life with God in Heaven. This is probably not right, but right now I want to see you as much as I want to see the Lord. I know the Lord comes first and foremost and we must love him more than anything, but with you it's hard....I'm having a hard time not loving you less than the Lord....I hope that doesn't count against me when it's all said and done....but for realz honey, I am empty now without you and life on earth seems so pointless and I want more than anything to just be done....I want to be with you.
Ya' know I talked to ----- thasmornin, she told me that ----- said, "I think I want to be where dad is"....----- said something to the effect that she couldn't or she tried to talk her out of it, ----- still replied, "no, thats what I want". Honey, you don't know how much that tore me up, I started crying immediately.....I don't know if it's because I felt so bad for ----- and I could feel her pain and sadness or because I could relate....we both want to be where you are.....I wish we could just hold hands and come to you together. How happy of a reunion would that be. Honey, she also told ----- that her heart would never be the same. Oh, that rings so true. Why does God do this to us? Why must we feel so much pain and have an empty heart. I don't understand. I don't try....I just cry and wish it was over.....or that it never happened....or that it will hurry up and come and I will be with you so, so soon.....and if ----- comes too that would be even better. Oh honey, it hurts so bad...I want it to stop and I miss you so much I can hardly take it. I need to stop typing I'm starting to cry too much. Please don't ever forget me .... I love you so much. xoxoxoxo