May 21, 2006

Why I Want To Marry You

Honey, here's our second assignment from our marriage counselor. We never had our next appointment and I never got to read this to you. This was my rough draft, of course, I wanted to add more and make it sound even more loving and compassionate, but I guess this will do. People always have regrets, I guess my only regret was that you never finished (haha ... or started) your letter. I would've read that letter everyday! Oh well, that's selfish of me anyway. Anyhow, here is the rough draft of what I thought would be a work of art, a long way to go, but you get the picture. I love you honey, for all eternity - just like we were married. We're forever, we won't ever end. Love ya honey. oxoxoxox

Why I Want To Marry You

why i want to marry you. where do i start with the reasons? i'd say the first reason for me had to do with the initial good feeling i had from you or should i say God. i live my life by my gut feelings which i believe is gods signal whether something is right or wrong. up to this point i had several opportunities to find the right guy but i never had that comfortable feeling. everyone was very nice and gentlemanly but i could never explain my lack of interest other than my lack of 'that gut feeling'. i've never been one to freely open up to others, typically it takes me a long while to know someone before i gradually loosen up. with you i had the most comforting feeling, something i'd never felt with any other person in my life. everything felt natural. i felt like i knew you forever and i immediately felt comfortable around you. most importantly i felt a trust with you that i've never felt with anyone else. instead of looking to escape, typical of earlier relationships, i wanted to actually stay! as you know a chain of unfortunate events lead me to my job in -------. so often i wondered why i was there. i never questioned gods will for i knew everything happens for a reason, i was just impatient and curious, why would i be here, of all places. it took some perserverence, but all questions were erased when i met you. i knew exactly why i was lead to ------. the reason was finally apparent. so this is initially why i knew i wanted to marry you, it felt so right.
now to expand on that, get specific and state all the other reasons why i want to marry you.
you are without a doubt the most pure, innocent and caring man i have ever met. you speak no unkind words of others, you are very considerate of other people and their feelings. you treat all people equally kind and would do anything to help someone. you are gentle, you would never hurt anyone. you want the best for all the people you know. although you may not admit it, you are emotional. you care, you laugh deeply, you smile big, you aren't afraid to cry, you hurt, you love deeply, and you're passionate. You are non-judgemental. You can distinquish a persons heart from the mistakes that they've made. You're empathetic, you put yourself in anothers shoes and think how they would feel. because of this you are caring, giving, and compassionate. You are full of respect, You see the good in ALL people and respect them for their hard work, struggles, joys, pains....everything that comprises their being. You never look down on anyone and treat everyone as an equal. You work hard, have goals and aren't afraid to stand up for what you believe in; you aren't afraid to stand up for what is right and what is wrong. You live a life doing for others knowing you may never have the favor returned, but rather giving and doing because of the joy it brings them. nothing is above you, you will work in the trenches, you struggle, you achieve, you overcome, you fight and you never give up. you believe, you inspire and you never, never give up. always seeing the good in everything. these are just a few of the traits that drew me to you, for you have them all. you are a fighter, you do good and your heart is pure. i want to marry you because you are the type of person i admire and respect. you encompass all the people in my life that i cherish and surround myself with. you are without a doubt the quinessential partner, best friend, fiance and soon to be husband. i am lucky to have someone such as yourself and your values to share my life with. you are the perfect person that i aspire to be, that we should all aspire to be. you are the perfect person i can model myself after, you keep me true. you are an inspiration to all to want to do better. i can also look to you and know we share the same value system, the same faith in the lord and the same beliefs and this i believe is important. we will walk down the path of life together, never drifting apart. our similar drive, ambition and goals will keep us moving forward together, never straying. i am drawn to your mischievious smile, your soft laugh, your caring spirit, your bright eyes, your gentle persona, your sharp mind and your driven ambition. you are also a protective father, only wanting the best for your children. you know how you want your children to grow up and while you may not have all the answers, you are always looking for the best way and the right way to make sure your children are beautiful human beings in this world. because of this i have no doubt that if we were ever to have our own child you would continue to exhibit the same great fatherly instincts and you would make yet another child proud to say, 'that's my dad'
i want to marry you because you are the most open person i have ever met. you listen, you critique, you reason, you think, you act. you look at all sides and make an objective decision. you don't act on emotion and are very rationale. i am amazed everyday by how much you really think about things, ask questions and then make an objective decision. you respect me as a human being, as a female, as a daughter, as a sister, as a friend, as a ---------, as a laid off -------, as a goofy kid, as a dreamer, as a washed up -------, as an emotional woman, and as an over smothering & loving partner to name a few. you support me unconditionally in any decisions i have made and will make, not only do/would you support me, but you would carry me when/if i needed strength. you would be my number one fan and would be the first to congratulate me at the finish line. you care about my well-being so much and would do anything to assure my happiness. your quest to provide for us is never ending. you will stop at nothing to make sure we, as your family, are well provided for. you are our strength when we need it. you are also such a strong man, you don't fold under pressure. you don't panic, you don't get stressed out. you're always so calm and collected. you're strength is amazing. you persevere and how you carry yourself is very admirable. honey, you brighten up a room with your smile and your laugh. my heart melts when i see that big grin of yours and i can't help but to laugh when you burst into laughter. you touch everyones heart with your big smile & laugh. bottom line is you touch everyone! you are a beautiful soul and as i've said before you truly are my angel sent from heaven. you are an amazing person, father, partner, pilot, ACN'er, best friend and soon to be husband. i thank god everyday for you and what a ridiculous question i just answered, why wouldn't i marry you!

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