Homesick

This song is by Mercyme, it's called Homesick. The ironic thing is they wrote this after 6,7,8 of their friends died in less than a year.
9 people close to me died this year - architect man, lawnmowerlonnie-, grandma ----, katie-, rick, you honey, uncle jack, john s.- and c-----. i guess if you want to count your friend r----....i didn't know him, but if he was your friend, he was mine too. at least i met him once. that was kinda cool and weird how we saw him. so 10 people, might as well round it up. what a f**in sh*tty year. i hope so bad that next year looks up. honey, i am trying so hard, but this is very, very hard. i miss you more than you could ever imagine. i heard someone say today on tv (she lost her husband), "i feel like a turtle without a shell"
xmas without u has come and gone. empty would be a good way to describe it. don't get me wrong, i had fun, laughed, ate too much and all that good stuff, but where were u. it wasn't the same. tomorrow i pick up --- and ---- and we'll meet grandma ---- in -----. i know that if there's anyplace in the world that u will be tomorrow, i know it will be with us. i just know it. how could u not be with the 4 ladies you love the most in your life. all we're missing is -----.
i'm gonna go, i'm sorry, i try to write you, but it hurts so much. i don't know if this is okay or not, but i still can't hardly look at you, think about you or talk about you. it hurts tremendously. this is a pain worse than anything i've ever felt in my life. i can't wait to die so i can be in heaven with everyone. i miss u honey....i really do. i miss you a lot. love you forever and ever, your baby girl. xoxoxoxo


You're in a better place, I've heard a thousand times
And at least a thousand times I've rejoiced for you
But the reason why I'm broken, the reason why I cry
Is how long must I wait to be with you

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

Help me Lord cause I don't understand your ways
The reason why I wonder if I'll ever know
But, even if you showed me, the hurt would be the same
Cause I'm still here so far away from home

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

In Christ, there are no goodbye
And in Christ, there is no end
So I'll hold onto Jesus with all that I have
To see you again

And I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow

I've never been more homesick than now