I'm Sad

Just thinking about you on the way back from church...just that I'm sad. I miss you a lot.
I imagine what it would be like if you walked in the door one day or if I came home and there you were. When I feel like it later, I'll go in to more detail of what it would be like. One thing is for sure, I would not ever let you out of my sight, for fear you'd disappear again. I'd follow you to the bathroom, outside, if you went in another room I'd have to go cuz if you ever went around a corner and I didn't see you I'd freak out. There would be no way I could ever let you out of my sight. I'd quit my job and just be with you. Who knows maybe that would ruin us or maybe I'd grow out of it once time went on and I found out it's okay, you're back for real. But I'd still quit my job and just be with you all the time. Anyway, I'd give anything for that dream of mine to come true, BUT we know that's not gonna happen. I can still imagine and dream though, if it makes me smile just for a second. Don't know what I'll do the rest of the day, but who cares, I always find something and the day is over before I know it and I think to myself, there's not enough time in the day...where did time go. I love you and really, I am sad and miss you a lot this morning. I guess numb is a better word. I'm not happy, but I'm not really sad either. I'm just stare straight ahead and don't want to talk to anybody....whatever that is. I love you honey, more than the world and life. You're the best thing that ever walked into my life. I'll love you forever, your baby girl oxoxoxox