Just The Two Of Us

i like being by myself because in a way i'm still alone with you. just me and you; me and my memories of you. here are my preferences in order 1. being with you - i'm alive and you're alive 2. dreaming about you and we are together 3. being alone with me and my memories of you...just me and you alone with no one to bother us - me thinking about you and i guess that just leaves being with people, which i don't really like because i'm always pretending like i'm okay, i'm always pretending everything is alright when it's not, i'm always pretending that i'm happy when in reality i'm so hollow and empty without you. other people take me away from you. just like when you were alive, other peoples demands took away from my time with you....nothing has changed. other people take away time i can daydream about us, think about getting to heaven (studying and focusing on my faith cuz i can't mess this one up!!!) or they take away me just reminiscing about you - us - our family - what we were going to have - what i'm still going to do for us - etc etc well, i think you are the most beautiful person i have ever met and i love you always and forever. i'm still anxiously awaiting the day that i die and we will be together again. i do need you honey. your babygirl forever and ever! xoxoxoxxo