So I had a dream about you. The first in a LONG time. I can't remember the last time I had a dream about you, but it reminds me of the old days when I used to dream about you all the time & I'd wake up happy because they're so real, but sometimes sad because you're not here. Or sad because they didn't go the way I wanted them to. This was one of those.
It started out I was driving in my car, I think the blue Mustang & I was going down this windy road and if I remember right I was in a hurry (but don't remember why or where I was even going) and I started going so fast my car lifted off and it was sailing through the air. Like I was doing a big jump, but then it kept getting higher and higher and then I was just flying. As I was flying through the skies there were helicopters all around me and I would fly by them, but then at some point I realized I was in a helicopter & it was me flying the helicopter. I felt like I was out of control and flying way too fast. But soon I saw what I recognized as the Cda resort golf course and helispots right there. There were a lot of them & helicopters already parked there, but somehow I landed in one. I remember just going so fast and somehow, someway I just slowed down, turned and landed on a spot. I got out and even spun the helicopter around with my own strength because it was facing the wrong way (haha). And in my dream it wasn't a big deal or even heavy, it was so light. Then someone came up to me and wanted my flight information. And I knew I might get in trouble for not having a pilots license so I said "(your name)" and the guy with his clipboard looked at me funny & I said "well I didn't fly it but (your name) did and he's off somewhere" He seemed to believe that & I remember people (other pilots) walking around their helicopters and looking at yours, it was 48 Uniform, and people were nodding their head like Yeah, that's (your name) helicopter. The atmosphere was like there was some big event there. So the guy got the information & I ended up going into this building and down a hall into what seemed like the pilots lounge. I don't remember too much of that except you were in there somewhere, but I wasn't looking for you ?? (I don't know why) even though I knew you were there. I went into this room right near the door where you entered. I was in there & some girl wanted in .. and I can't remember the exact order of these events, but at some point this girl wanted in the door. There were windows so I could see her. I kind of waited to see if she could get in because I didn't think the door was locked, but then there might have been a code?? And then next I remember being on a phone (one in the room or my cell??? not sure, can't remember) and it was you. But you thought you were talking to this girl and you were laughing telling her how to get in & I remember you called her Rachel and then I knew we weren't dating anymore. This was your girlfriend and I was heart broken and devastated and I didn't understand .. when, why and how this happened, I thought we were in love forever. And I remember walking to the door looking at her & hearing you talk and laugh like you thought you were talking with Rachel and I got closer to Rachel to see what she looked like and she had short-medium length brown hair and about my height and weight ... and I just looked at her & was speechless about the whole thing because you & I weren't together anymore and then I woke up and it was 5 a.m.
And really that's it. I just wish I could see you again in a dream & we were together again. And everything was okay. Those kind of dreams suck. I wake up and the feeling of rejection & hurt is so real.
I miss you so much honey. I pray for you all the time. And think of you all the time & still always wish it wasn't like this. You are my soul mate and I still feel like a half without you. I love you honey. Forever & ever, that will never change!! xoxoxoxo
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