6 Years & 5 Months

So it's been 6 years & 5 months and I still miss you so much.  We worked with a Kmax on one of our last fires & all I could think about was you.  We got our first flight out of a fire this year and all I could do was stare at the pilots back as we rode back to the drop point & think of you.  Everyone gets to come home to someone they love and I think how that should be me but it's not.  I've just been really sad lately thinking about you and how you're not here.  I still feel so close to you & think to myself how could there ever be anyone out there as good as you.  I have a million things going through my head when I'm out on the fireline.  It seems like it all revolves around you & how much I miss you and how I think you should be here!!!  I really miss you honey & still to this day I would give it ALL up to be with you again.  You were so amazing & I was so blessed to know you.  I miss you hon.   :-(