Dream About You

Last night I had another dream about you....I can't remember too much of the specifics. At first I was excited to see you and then there's a gap to me talking to you about 'when I thought you were dead'. I was telling you that it was hard for me to even picture your face, remember how you hugged, remembering your kiss. I guess I was basically telling you how hard it was. Basically my memories weren't good enough, it was hard to remember you fully, like you really were and how I wanted. Then after that there was another gap and I was telling you now we need to do our life insurance and put our money together and all that....I was saying not cuz I'm greedy, but to save us from all the trouble we (Bonnie and I) went through. I don't remember specifics, but you didn't really agree with me I don't think...or you said we'd do it later, not now sorta thing. I was upset because I thought we needed to do it now cuz something could happen to you at anytime. I reiterated that it really tore up your mom and she at one point even said "ooh, I could smack him for leaving us with this mess" (something to that effect). Then your mom was riding a lawn mower in the distance....looking all sad. She must not have known you were back. In fact she didn't cuz I remember thinking how excited she was going to be to see you. So I even pointed to your mom and said look how sad she is. Next thing I remember you were gone and I was in this house. An old Victorian type house. And there was a lot of anger. Damn, I was just beating this poor person to a pulp and all I can remember is having a lot of hurt, pain and anger. I had this person and they were all limp and I was just beating their head against the stair railing. After they were limp I threw her down and grabbed her friend and started twisting her arm around and around until it broke and I was going to beat her to a pulp to but then she started begging me to stop and then I woke up. Main thing was I was sooo angry at the end of my dream...just trying to get it out I guess.

Well, church starts in 15 minutes (I'm at moms in ------) so I better go. I love you more than anything and I feel a whole lot better today (than yesterday) cuz I dreamt about you. I love dreaming about you (no matter what) cuz it really makes me feel like I saw you last night. It sometimes keeps me going, from one dream to another. I like to think of it as you coming to me in the night. Thanks honey, I love you for that! xoxoxo