Top Gun

I'm sure you've seen Top Gun. That's what I feel like at work.

You know the part after Goose dies. (I think that's his name) They talk behind Tom Cruises back and say 'keep an eye on him' They didn't know if he was ready to get up in the air and fly again.

That's what they're doing to me. I was going to be burn boss on a unit, but ------ went behind my back and must have told ----- I wasn't ready yet. I was wondering why I got yanked off of it and sent to some lame ass unit we were on instead. I only found out cuz ------ told me. What pisses me off is that no one told me....why don't they just say we're gonna hold off. I would much rather have them be honest with me. I hate it when people do shit like that behind my back. It really pisses me off. That's fine that they're not gonna let me do this or that, but at least tell me so I don't sit here and wonder why.

Ya know they're so stupid, they won't let me be burn boss, which risks what? Maybe losing a unit...give me a break, I'm not that dumb OR they let me drive a vehicle every damn day and I'm spaced out as can be. My odds of wrecking a vehicle and killing passengers are way, way higher. It's something so mindless...talk about spacing off. At least with burn boss you have to be focused. When I do a task where I have to focus I forget about you and it's actually ok. I can do that. Something like driving though, talk about one of the most mindless tasks you can do. Oh well, I guess if I wreck I wreck. What's kind of bad is I don't care if I die...the sooner I die, the sooner I get to Heaven and the sooner I see you.