Stud

you're a stud. you're beautiful. i love so many things about you. this really sucks cuz i had the best thing in the whole world and now it's gone. to pretend like you were never here sucks but that's essentially what i havta do. pretend that you were never even a part of my life, that way i can focus on what i have to do each day. if i think about you during the day...which happens to be all the time, i can't focus on anything. it's easy to push you way back and not think about you. push you so far back it's like you never happened. that's easier than dealing with the pain of losing the best thing that has ever happened to me. i can never be with anyone ever again. you were it. i love god for lending you to me. and i love you for as long as i live and more and more and more. your baby girl. xoxoxo