Anniversary

A year ago today you asked me to marry you. It was without a doubt the happiest day of my life. I have never cried because I was so happy. That was the first time ever in my whole life that I cried because I was sooo happy. You don't even know how it touched me. I will never forget, the moment you asked the tears just came, I had absolutely no control. It was actually before you asked, when you got on your knees and took my hand, that look in your eyes...I knew and started crying. I was so overjoyed, this was the moment I'd waited for my whole life. You were the one I dreamed about , you were the one, we found each other and we were about to become one. We were going to share our life together. I seriously had no control over the tears. Remember how hard I hugged you, I was so happy, I never wanted to let you go. I'd give anything to rewind back to that moment, if I knew then what I knew know, I'd still be holding you. I'd hold you so tight and there's no way you would've pried me off of you. Remember how I just kept looking at the ring and I smiled so big and I couldn't stop looking at it. And I couldn't stop hugging you. That was the most wonderful moment in my whole life. It's hard to believe how much has happened since that time. It's been 365 days. :( I'll never forget that moment. Never in my whole life. I couldn't believe I was so lucky to have someone like you love me. I was so, so lucky. I really believe that. You were heaven sent. Honey, I love and miss you so much. I want us to be together again. This is really, really hard. It's so hard, I wish the pain would stop. I wish so bad. It's been 5 months since you died. I have to go to -----..probably a fire, we had over 300 lightning strikes. Not the way I'd like to honor you, but I will write your letter tomorrow. I pray that we will be reunited soon. I still can't imagine the rest of my life without you. This is hard. I love you more than anything in this whole world honey. I really do. You're still all that matters, I can't get over you. Please come back and get me, I miss you. I love you always for the rest of my life and after. Love u, love u, love u, love u, love u, love u - your baby girl.