So Much Left Un-did

I'm trying not to think of you too in depth. I miss you so much. I had a great thing for 3 years. The best thing of my life and now it's gone. I miss what we had and I miss what was to come. There was so much left un-did. I could say un-said, but we always said how much we meant to each other...so we didn't leave anything unsaid.

I just miss what we're supposed to have right now. I look at my life now and what it could/should be....I try not to think about it too much cuz it really sucks and it really hurts. Life with you was really special and enjoyable. It was before you, but you showed me what I'd been missing out on all these yrs. If I would've never met you, I'd never know right now what I'm missing out on. That's what hurts so much. It's not supposed to be this way. You were awesome. You were amazing. I loved every bit of you and every minute with you. Life seems blah without you now. It's hard to get back on track and think life is ok....I'm missing out on you and you were great.

Well, it just sucks and I still try so hard to have a good attitude and not think about you and what I'm missing. It just kills me if I do, so I try. I try, try, try.

Sending you all my heart and soul. All the love from the bottom of my heart. I love you always and forever....you will never be forgotten.....not ever as long as I live. Then when I die I finally get to be with you again! I can't wait. I love you honey, you're the best ever in this whole wide world! Love you, love you, love you. Your baby girl xoxoxoxo