Conversations With God

I wonder if you have conversations with God? These are some things I think he would say...or has said. I bet he told you "When you and ---- went on your first date, she knew. She really did ----. I know she told you and just in case you wondered if she really meant it or felt it.....she did. She loved you from the beginning -----."
I bet he's said this to you too: "You know what -----, deep down ----- knows she will never love again like she loved you. She doesn't know this yet, but she's right -----. You were her one and only...she says it, but she really has no idea how true it is. She knows it though, in her heart of hearts she knows that you were the one and that being "in love" with you is how love is supposed to be. She knows someone like you only comes by once in a lifetime. She knows it will never happen again. She's okay with that though, she's just sad because she didn't feel like she had enough time with you."


I wonder if God tells you I'll be all right. I don't feel like it will ever be all right. I can move on, but in my soul it will always hurt. There will always be an ache in my heart and soul. In a dream I had about you shortly after you died you told me, "It will be hard." There's no time limit on that. It's hard now and what's scary is it could be hard for 10 more years, 5 more years, 40 more years? I don't know. It is true though....it will be hard (it is hard!). Just for how long?