"Feel" My Love

Just in case you get email in Heaven...:) I love you so much...sosososososo much! Honey, I wish this void wasn't here. This void that nothing can fill. It's such an empty, isolated feeling. Like I'm in this world all by myself. I go through the motions, but all my heart, soul and deep feelings are with you. It's okay though, I pray for God/Jesus to pour on the hurt. It is my test and I will pass. The more God makes me hurt the more he loves me and the more he has in store for me. He wouldn't just make any Joe Blow hurt like this or feel this kind of pain. So the more pain I have is equivalent to what's in store for me...something good. The more pain...the greater the prize. I will go through any pain. I will be like Job. So while I am hurting, hollow, empty. Just a shell of the former me...that's okay. Nothing matters to me except living the purest life I can for God and you. I will be reunited with you. Soon I hope because this will be some pain to have to endure this life without you for years on end. But that may be the pain God wants me to suffer, that's fine. Anyway, if I can get to you sooner than I will gladly accept!! I dream about the day we will see each other again and how I'll react and how you'll react. I can't wait for that day, in the meantime, everything else is insignificant. I love you honey, so much I can't put it to words. It's a love like no other...you know honey, I don't have to explain, I have a feeling you can feel my love. Unlike earth, you can't "feel" how much someone loves you, maybe by a kiss or a hug or a look, but you can't really "feel" it, if you know what I mean. I believe in Heaven you can "feel" love. So I know you can feel me. I know you can. I just hope you can only feel my love, not my pain. You're my destiny honey...I'll be there soon! I love you honey. Forever - for all eternity - no doubt, you are the ONE. xoxoxoxo