This is my Valentines Day card to you honey. I'm finding it hard to decorate your site and celebrate a day that signifies love. A day that should be celebrated with you. So forgive me, this was the best I could do. Honey, I just want you to know that you are soooo beautiful. There is a complete lack of words in this English language to do you justice. There are no words deep or pure enough to explain exactly how I feel when I think about you. You still make me shake my head in awe. Awe that someone can be so beautiful and pure as you; inside and out. You are without a doubt one of a kind. There is no doubt God blessed me with someone that was filled with everything HE stands for.....love. You epitomized Heaven. If there was one person on this earth that God created in his image just to exist on this earth, it was you. You were so loving, caring and beautiful. I am fortunate and feel chosen that that God blessed me out of all people in this whole world to experience what it was like to have a relationship that's similar to what it would be like in Heaven. All love. Although we still had human characteristics and misgivings we still experienced something so pure and heavenly, which I am sure is the same love we will all feel in Heaven. You and me did it honey....we got a sneak preview. The love you and I shared was so close to perfect it was almost frightening that something could be so Heavenly here on earth. I look at what we had as a true gift from God, HE let us experience Heaven on earth for our short time together. I thank the Lord for every second of it. What we had was something that happens to a select few in this world and most definitely a once in a lifetime occurrence. I know I will never experience what we had again in my earthly existence, but I know what I have to look forward to in Heaven. I was the lucky one to have experienced you and all that you had to offer. We were two souls aching to give all of ourselves to someone when we met. That's exactly what we did. We gave everything; all our heart and soul to each other. We held nothing back. That's all we wanted. To give all of us to the other. We couldn't explain our love to someone else, they had to see it. Our love was exactly like a fairy tale or romantic movie. If we were left only to explain our love, it would be the love on the big screen. Perfect and so loving, making people shed a tear of happiness because it was so perfect and so beautiful. We loved each other that much. We loved each other so much it hurt at times. I never thought that was possible or I never understood it. Maybe hurt is the wrong word. We loved each other so much it made us cry. We cried because we were sooo happy. We both had went through so much and we had found our reward at the end to make the journey worthwhile. We did it, we made it. We found each other, or more like God brought us together. We had it all. We had love. I always said you were my angel sent from above. There will never be another you, you were the "one." My heart knew the moment I met you that you were "the one." I understand that "the one" is singular, meaning it's only once. In this case, once in our lifetimes. There will never be another, which is fine, I only want you. You were "the one" I was supposed to spend the rest of my life with. No one can even come close to you. I will wait. Just like our wedding vows, "the one" to have and to hold, to love.... We were supposed to be joined as one and in our minds we already were. We just never had the ceremony to officially say we were. We will be together again and I will wait. Our souls are eternally joined, so although we are physically apart, we are still joined by our hearts, our souls and our love. What you and I had people can never understand. I can never expect anyone to understand the depth of our love because one can't understand what they've never experienced. We were blessed, there is no doubt. Very few are fortunate enough to love like we loved. A select few who are blessed by the Lord above and for that I thank him. I did when you were here and I still do. These feelings I say to you are nothing new you know, I told you all the time, this is not a case of idolizing you now that you're gone, I did it when you were alive too. I'm so thankful I never kept it to myself and thank God I smothered you with all my love and worshiped you every minute of every day. I always told you all the little beautiful things you said or did, how you acted...anything you did that made me light up (everything!), I told you. Honey, I want to give up, but I haven't. I will go on as painful as it is, I will. I don't know about my heart. It will always be yours. You have my heart. You took it with you. I gave it to you from the beginning. I gave it to you to keep....forever. I didn't give you my heart with intentions of taking it back.....ever. You will always have it and I will go on always looking forward to that day when we will be reunited again. Until then you have my heart - all of it. I love you more than anything ever in my whole life. I will love you until the end of time. You are the only one in the world for me. I still look at you and feel the same feelings, only now instead of experiencing your beauty in person, I am looking at pictures.
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