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This is the saddest thing I’ve ever had to do. March 17, God reclaimed one the most beautiful, precious souls He ever put in this world. --------------------- left the world and went to take his place in heaven. I have no doubt that he is in a place full of peace, love and clarity, a place with no pain or grief. Here, down in this world, so many are broken, so many are missing the light -------- took with him when he left us. At his funeral, hundreds of people cried the depths of their grief as they said good bye.
To ---------- unbelievable family, I just wish I knew the words to say to make things better. I can’t begin to imagine the pain and the longing you are all feeling. I can only say this: there are so many people who are with you, there are so many people who love you, there are so many people who are eternally grateful to you for bringing -------- into the world so that he could make it a better place to be by touching their souls. I am a better person because of my relationship with -------. He just reached inside of me and before I realized what was happening, took a piece of my heart. He made me feel special, he made me feel like all that I do is worthwhile, and he brought me closer to God.
Most of all, ----------- reminded me how to pray. I don’t think I ever prayed so much in my life as I did with ---------. Not only am I praying, but --------’s goodness, his smile and his divine uniqueness brought hundreds of people to prayer. I thank -------- for opening a part of my soul that I never knew had existed.
This world is the crazy place, this world is supposedly the nightmare, and when one comes up to heaven, it’s like coming home. It's the place where everything makes sense, where all questions are answered, where peace dwells.
Those of you who are mourning -------, and those who, sadly, were not blessed to know him. It is so easy to give up, to walk away from God. It’s so hard to understand why this world is so cruel, why someone as pure as ------- had to be taken. -------- was a walking miracle. As Josh Savitz so brilliantly said today, we shouldn't be angry he was taken from us, we should be thankful that he was here at all.
Please, all of you, I beg you to keep praying. It is clear to me-even if it doesn’t seem this way- that our prayers are making a big difference, and bringing so much light to the darkness. Please continue to pray for the people who need healing, and pray for -------’s soul. Please pray that ---------------------------- should find the most heavenly peace in the arms of my father and of The Only One. May we who are left feel -------’s love as he continues to bring joy, pride and great miracles from the upper realms.
I’m sitting here at my computer, crying, and remembering the last time I held ---------’s hand... ---------, I love you so much. Thank you for being my friend, my fiance, my better half, my soul mate, my everything, thank you for being in the world for a beautiful 39 years, thank you, thank you, thank you. I will never forget you. Please remember me, until we meet again.

I asked him why do bad things happen to such good and holy people. He said he wished he knew, that it breaks his heart every second to feel the pain of the world. Then he took a moment, cupped my small hand in his large, soft one and said that the only thing he knows for sure, is that righteous people are often pushed to the limits just so that God could hear their prayers. He said all God craves is the sound of His children calling to him... I've taken these words with me and they haunt my soul in these days. Is it not time then, my friends, to begin to pray, to make God a part of our lives in a more meaningful way?