I just want to make sure that you know I love you so much honey. Sometimes it seems I only write you when I'm in a bad mood, so it might seem like I'm in a bad way all the time. Well, usually when I'm feeling okay I don't write, but when I feel hopeless, scared, sad or angry, that's when I need you honey. I write you because you're all I have (besides God). I should send you a lot more loving emails, just like back in the old days huh? Anyhow, that's the only reason for this one. It just seems lately I've been really bummed about this whole situation and I'm just feeling really weird. You feel further away from me than you've ever felt before and I don't like it one bit. I think it might be because I've been focusing on not thinking about you and our memories (sorry, it just hurts too much all the time), but I think it makes it worse if I don't think about you as often as I'd like, so forget that plan. Back to thinking about you all the time, no matter how much it hurts. As Public Enemy says, "Bring The Pain." Honey, you are the best ever and that will never change. I was thinking the other day that there is absolutely no man that is as kind or beautiful as you were/are. You broke the mold, most guys don't even come close to how beautiful you were/are. I was just thinking back to how you treated me like a queen and worshiped the ground I walked on, which was cool. But what was even cooler was returning the favor and treating you like a king and worshiping the ground you walked on. Boy, weren't we two love sick puppy dogs. People loved seeing us together because we were so happy. We sure set an example for a lot of people huh honey. I'm proud of that, I just wish we could've touched more people. I'm going to make myself cry (again, for the millionth time today). I better go to bed honey, it's late, I just had to make sure you knew I loved you more than anything ever in this whole world. And even though I say I want to die all the time, it's only because I just want to be with you again sooooo bad. It's not like I'm a suicidal basket case, it's just my desperation rearing it's ugly head. All I want is to be with you. I think if I waited 30 years for you I can be patient and wait for __ more years. I can wait. You're the best honey. I love you sooooo, sooooo much!! Your babygirl forever!!
May 21, 2007
I LOVE YOU!!!
I just want to make sure that you know I love you so much honey. Sometimes it seems I only write you when I'm in a bad mood, so it might seem like I'm in a bad way all the time. Well, usually when I'm feeling okay I don't write, but when I feel hopeless, scared, sad or angry, that's when I need you honey. I write you because you're all I have (besides God). I should send you a lot more loving emails, just like back in the old days huh? Anyhow, that's the only reason for this one. It just seems lately I've been really bummed about this whole situation and I'm just feeling really weird. You feel further away from me than you've ever felt before and I don't like it one bit. I think it might be because I've been focusing on not thinking about you and our memories (sorry, it just hurts too much all the time), but I think it makes it worse if I don't think about you as often as I'd like, so forget that plan. Back to thinking about you all the time, no matter how much it hurts. As Public Enemy says, "Bring The Pain." Honey, you are the best ever and that will never change. I was thinking the other day that there is absolutely no man that is as kind or beautiful as you were/are. You broke the mold, most guys don't even come close to how beautiful you were/are. I was just thinking back to how you treated me like a queen and worshiped the ground I walked on, which was cool. But what was even cooler was returning the favor and treating you like a king and worshiping the ground you walked on. Boy, weren't we two love sick puppy dogs. People loved seeing us together because we were so happy. We sure set an example for a lot of people huh honey. I'm proud of that, I just wish we could've touched more people. I'm going to make myself cry (again, for the millionth time today). I better go to bed honey, it's late, I just had to make sure you knew I loved you more than anything ever in this whole world. And even though I say I want to die all the time, it's only because I just want to be with you again sooooo bad. It's not like I'm a suicidal basket case, it's just my desperation rearing it's ugly head. All I want is to be with you. I think if I waited 30 years for you I can be patient and wait for __ more years. I can wait. You're the best honey. I love you sooooo, sooooo much!! Your babygirl forever!!
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