Some days and/or nights I just get REALLY sad cuz you're not here and I miss you so much. I really do honey. Today and tonight I feel so weird and out of place because you are MISSING - you are gone & I'm not supposed to be here. I'm supposed to be in our new home with you & the girls. Sometimes I don't like my life ... not because of what I do or where I am ... just because you're not in it. I wish I could cry this all out and make it go away, but I can't even cry. I almost feel like this is the worst part of "healing" cuz I'm not over you & on with my life, yet I'm out of that numb phase where I was oblivious to life and everything in it and I didn't care. Now I'm in the middle and I look at my life & wow, it's alright and I like what I'm doing, but I'm missing YOU - I should be sharing life with you....instead I'm all alone missing your kisses, your hugs, your laugh, your voice .... just EVERYTHING about you. I miss it all & that smashes everything else out. I guess there's not much more to say ... that's life. Love you my K-dub!! One. <3
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