Beautiful Love

I'm going to see an attorney tomorrow about our property. I pray that everything works out according to Gods plan & whatever happens I pray for acceptance. I know Gods will well play out. Please be with me honey. I think about you a lot & wish you were here constantly. I don't know where my life is going, but I do know it's alone & without you. And I do know at the very end you'll be waiting for me. I miss & love you so much honey. You are so beautiful. To this day the person you were amazes me. I miss you beautiful. Some day we'll be together again. Until then you'll always be number one in my heart. I thank God I told you everyday how much I loved you and you ALWAYS knew. I never wanted you to doubt & likewise you always made me feel like a princess and number 1. I know without a doubt you loved me more than anything ever & you gave every bit of your heart to me. What we had was beautiful. Thanks to God for making it happen & thanks to you for talking to me that first time.
And I just hung up our hawaiian shirts next to each other. haha. I love you honey!! xoxoxoxoxox FOREVER!!

About 0935 am

I received a call on my cell phone at 09:36 am, the number said 0000000000. I didn't answer, but my first thought was it was you. I wasn't certain on the time that you died, I was thinking it was closer to 10 am. At first I thought it was a sign from you, but then I thought, the call was an half hour too soon. I got curious and looked up the FAA report on your crash. About 0935. OMG, thank you for the call. I think of you all the time honey. I miss you horribly & would give anything to have you back in my life again. I love you sooo much & I can't thank you enough for the phone call. LOVE YOU!!!!

On March 17, 2006, about 0935 Pacific standard time, a Kaman K-1200 helicopter, N263KA, collided with terrain in an uncontrolled descent following a loss of engine power while hovering out of ground effect about 16 nautical miles north of Dayville, Oregon.

I Hope ...

SO I CAN BE WITH YOU

We Were Supposed To Be Together Forever

5 Years Ago

5 years ago tonight I talked to you on the phone. Then you called me again tomorrow a few times way early in the morning .. like 3, 4 and 5. OMG, I don't know what to say honey except I miss you terribly and I feel really LOST without you. I feel like my life is out of control & I have no direction. I don't know what the hell is going on ... I really have NO direction. If only you were here everything would be OK. Ugh, I hate my job, but how many years have I been saying that? Well what am I going to do instead? Pfffft, I have no idea. I'm trapped. Ugh, shut up, this is about you .. not me. I lost you 5 years ago and ever since nothing has been right. When I see you again is when I will be happy again. I love you honey. So so so much!!

You & Me Forever

You know & I know I've tried my best to let go of you, but I don't want to. Wanda asked me today if I had anyone new in my life & I told her the truth, that there's no one out there better than you. She's about the only one I can tell that to without being judged or her trying to convince me that there's someone else out there for me. She's one of the few who knew how absolutely in love we were. She knows I won't ever be with anyone again & I know that. I'll probably never tell anyone else that because when I do they go on & on about how I will find someone else or I need to date again or whatever b.s. they spew. I love Wanda for accepting what we had & that it is what it is & I will be without you until I die and we are together again in Heaven. I DON'T want anyone else. I CAN'T imagine it. It's just not going to happen. I'm soooo happy & blessed & fortunate for the wonderful time we shared and no one can ever take that away from me. My life is only me now & that's okay. I see myself alone until I die just doing my thing and being independent. I just wish I was retired or independently wealthy so I could go to AZ or travel to Oly and do some coaching or drive around the U.S. & just be in Renee land visiting people and having fun. :-)
I miss you honey & we sure shared something special didn't we. God bless that!
You have a good night honey ... your angelversary is coming up. :-( Please be with me in one way or another ... dream or a sign, they all make me happy. I love you forever hon!! x0x0x0x0x0

Miss You

All that I know is your love, nothing else interests me.

Marriage

HOW I FEEL ABOUT YOU STILL TO THIS DAY ... especially below "all I know is your love, nothing else interests me"

I am condemned to love you, and that is my salvation. I shall have to live for ever in the shadow of your eyes, accept the fact that everything your hand touches arouses the best in me. All that I know is your love, nothing else interests me.

Two people join together, love provokes more love. Two imperfect beings unite, and perfection becomes possible.

My friends, they are all afraid of loneliness; what’s wrong about being alone?

I believe that a couple that puts God at the center of their lives will also know where to put marriage where it belongs. Being with another person doesn’t mean making a god of them, this should be seen as part of the divine blessings that affect our lives every day – like love, sex, music, solitude, and even suffering. Marriage is by no means destiny, but rather part of our path, and I am sure that God uses this union for a reason that goes far beyond perpetuating the species.

Life Without You

Life without Kenny