Just Maybe

I had a thought today, a revelation maybe. They say we will have jobs in Heaven too and it may be like earth, only all that will be felt is love. No jealousy, lust, anger, sadness, greed and all those other negative emotions. So I was thinking what if people did have their own role and job in Heaven and what if they did have computers or internet or access the emails we send to love ones across the airwaves? If by some slim chance there was a way you could read or get every email I ever sent you I would feel like an ass not writing you everyday and telling you how much you mean to me or how much I love you or how much you changed me for the better and made me a better person. I don't want to take that chance, so if there is some slim chance you can see what I am typing now, read my mind as I'm putting these thoughts to words or you can intercept this in cyberspace I want you to know you are my everything. Even if I can't be with you, see you, hear you or feel you. I live and breathe for you and the chance that someday I will see you again. I hurt horribly without you, this is an emptiness that hurts clear to the core of my being. An emptiness that fills my soul. I am still happy for what we had and all the enjoyable times we shared, but I am lost without you. I really am. Life feels so robotic and worthless now. My mind tells me this won't last forever and it will pass, but my heart says differently. It aches and longs for every part of you. I love you honey and please don't ever forget that or doubt how much I love you, it's forever. Love your baby girl forever. xoxoxox