Random thoughts & ramblings from someone who has lost a loved one. What it's really like to grieve.
Sep 28, 2006
So Much Left Un-did
Sep 27, 2006
Never
Sep 26, 2006
Emptiness
Sep 25, 2006
Hurts To Be Without You
The family feared what would become of Wooden when Nellie, his wife of more than 53 years, died of cancer on the first day of spring, 1985. He went 10 years without returning to the Final Four because he would not go alone.
Even today, hearing his wife's name causes him to pause. And, without saying another word, his eyes fill with tears.
"He still pines for her. He misses her so much. He is grateful for everything he has, but it still hurts him to be without her," said Wooden's daughter, Nan Muehlhausen. "The older I get, the more I look like my mother. Daddy loves it, but sometimes it tugs at his heart too because, when he looks at me, it reminds him that she's gone."
Socrates once wrote he was not in fear of death because of the life he lived. And so it is with John Wooden.
There was pleasure in the championships.
Pride in the accomplishments.
But the true joy?
That has been the journey.
Strong Woman
To one of the strongest women I know . . .
The Woman
>> >>
>> >> When God created woman he was working late.
>> >> On the 6th day An angel came by and said: "Why spend so much
>> >>time on that one?"
>> >> And the Lord answered: "Have you seen all the specifications I
>> >>have to meet to shape her?"
>> >> "She must be washable, but not made of plastic, have more than
>> >>200 moving parts which all must be replaceable
>> >> And she must function on all kinds of food, she must be able to
>> >>embrace several kids at the same time, give a hug that can heal
>> >>anything
>>from a bruised knee to a broken heart and she must do all
>> >>this with only two hands".
>> >>
>> >> The angel was impressed. "Just two hands....impossible!" And
>> >> this is the standard model?! "Too much work for one
>> >>day....wait until
>> >> tomorrow and then complete her".
>> >>
>> >>
>> >> "I will not", said the Lord. "I am so close to complete this
>> >>creation, which will be the favorite of my heart".
>> >> "She cures herself when sick and she can work 18 hours a day". The
>> >> angel came nearer and touched the woman.
>> >>
>> >>
>> >> "But you have made her so soft, Lord"
>> >>
>> >> "She is soft", said the Lord, "But I have also made her
>>strong.
>> >>You can't imagine what she can endure and overcome."
>> >>
>> >> "Can she think?" the angel asked.
>> >>
>> >> The Lord answered: "Not only can she think, she can reason and
>> >>negotiate."
>> >>
>> >>
>> >> The angel touched the woman's cheek....
>> >> "Lord, it seems this creation is leaking! You have put too many
>> >> burdens on her."
>> >>
>> >> "She is not leaking....it's a tear" the lord corrected the angel
>> >>
>> >>
>> >> "What's it for?" asked the angel.
>> >>
>> >>
>> >> And the Lord said: "Tears are her way of expressing grief, her
>> >>doubts, her love, her loneliness, her suffering and her
>>pride."
>> >>
>> >>
>> >> This made a big impression on the angel; "Lord, you are genius.
You
>> >> thought of everything. The woman is indeed marvelous!"
>> >>
>> >>
>> >> Indeed she is! Woman has strengths that amazes man. She can
>> >>handle trouble and carry heavy burdens.
>> >> She holds happiness, love and opinions.
>> >> She smiles when feeling like screaming.
>> >> She sings when she feels like crying,
>> >> cries when she is happy and laughs when she is afraid.
>> >> She fights for what she believes in.
>> >> Stand up against injustice.
>> >> She doesn't take "no" for an answer, when she can see a better
>>
>> >>solution.
>> >> She gives herself so her family can thrive.
>> >> She takes her friend to the doctor if she is afraid.
>> >> Her love is unconditional.
>> >> She cries when her kids are victorious.
>> >> She is happy when her friends do well.
>> >> She is glad when she hears of a birth or a wedding.
>> >> Her heart is broken when a next of kin or friend dies.
>> >> But she finds the strength to get on with life.
>> >> She knows that a kiss and a hug can heal a broken heart.
>> >>
>> >>
>> >> There is only one thing wrong with her.She forgets what she is
>> >>worth...
It was great to talk to you the other night. How amazing that we were both thinking of each other at the same time. Hope the coaches clinic was a blast! Talk to you soon.
Beyond The Love Of The Game
BEYOND THE LOVE OF THE GAME
Timeless Lessons from “The Coach”
by Greg Asimakoupoulos John Wooden was born only 19 years after the game of basketball was invented and went on to become arguably the greatest college basketball coach of all time. His coaching feats — most notably leading the UCLA Bruins to 10 NCAA championships in 12 years, including seven in a row from 1967 to 1973 — probably will never be repeated. Now 95 years old, Coach Wooden has not lost his love for the game. This month he’ll watch March Madness as he has for most of his life. But as he follows the road to the Final Four each year, the revered coach sees more in a game of hoops than most. “Sports not only holds a place of importance in my heart, it holds a place of unparalleled significance in our culture,” John says. “But while some suggest the game develops character, I’m more inclined to say that sports [including basketball] reveals character.” Coach, as his former players still call him, has had many years to refine and reflect on his philosophies of leadership and achievement. He has written several books on the subjects, including Coach Wooden’s Pyramid of Success. Through the tests of time, character and success in life still matter more to John than his legendary success on the court. “There is only one kind of a life that truly wins, and that is the [life of] one who places faith in the hands of the Savior,” he says. “Until that is done, we are on an aimless course that runs in circles and goes nowhere. Material possessions, winning scores and great reputations are meaningless in the eyes of the Lord, because He knows what we really are. That is all that matters.” Love of the Game As a teenager, John led his high school basketball team to an Indiana state championship. Later, the Purdue University Boilermakers won the 1932 national championship thanks to John’s accurate shot and disciplined play. John was named College Player of the Year. John played pro ball for seven seasons after college, but his love for the game fully blossomed in his role as a coach. From 1948 to 1975 he courted unparalleled success as the head coach of the UCLA Bruins. Though other coaches have totaled more career wins, no one has matched the dominance of John’s teams. You want to talk dynasty? During John’s coaching years, the Bruins set records with four perfect 30-0 seasons, 88 consecutive victories, 38 straight NCAA tournament victories, 20 Pacific-10 Conference championships and, of course, the 10 national titles. Love of a Woman “In my marriage to Nellie,” John says, “I learned how important it is to find peace in yourself so that you can overlook the flaws in others. My marriage also taught me how to work through misunderstandings. The devotion I had for my wife allowed me to overcome all kinds of obstacles.” Even though it’s been 21 years since Nellie lost her lengthy battle with cancer, John continues to honor her memory by writing a letter each month. “In each letter I express my love and confess how much I miss her,” John says. “I also chronicle the activities of our children, grandchildren and great-grandchildren.” Love of God “I did it for Nellie and my folks,” John admits. “But it wasn’t real. I didn’t know Jesus as my personal Savior at that time.” The coach credits his wife as being his primary influence in developing a deeply personal and authentic faith. By consistently living out her faith and insisting that John go to church with her, Nellie eventually saw her husband give his heart to Jesus in slam-dunk surrender. John’s spiritual commitment greatly impacted his life work. “There’s no way I can fully describe how my faith in Christ has influenced the way I coached,” John says. “It gave me an inner serenity in the face of stressful situations. It also motivated me to treat my players and colleagues with a degree of understanding that was beyond my natural ability. By learning to accept people and circumstances I didn’t fully agree with, I was able to act in ways I wouldn’t later regret.” John continues to accept speaking engagements across the nation each year. Although he hasn’t coached collegiate ball for 31 years, John hasn’t forgotten how to differentiate between winning on the court and winning in life.
John discovered his love for basketball early in life. He was born in Martinsville, Ind., in 1910 just as the game’s popularity was sweeping the United States. (Basketball itself was invented by James Naismith in 1891 in a Springfield, Mass., YMCA.) As an 8-year-old, John stuffed rags in his mother’s stockings and shot his “ball” at a tomato basket his father had nailed to a wall in their barn.
As much as John loves basketball, he loved his wife far more. Nellie was his high school sweetheart, and the two wed in 1932 after John’s graduation from Purdue. It was a marriage, marked by storybook commitment and romance, that lasted until Nellie’s death in 1985.
Although John can’t point to a moment when he fully surrendered his life to Christ, he knows when it didn’t happen. As a 17-year-old he went forward at church, simply going through the motions in order to please his sweetheart.
Sep 22, 2006
Another Dream
Sep 21, 2006
Dream
Sep 20, 2006
Bad Day
Sep 18, 2006
Sinking In
6 Months
Sep 16, 2006
Feel You With Me
Sep 15, 2006
Hellen Keller Quotes
Both of these made me think of you. The first one is so true, you became a part of me, now you're gone and there's nothing left but a hole. The second quote also holds true, although I can't see or touch you, I feel you deeply with my heart all day, every day. Honey, I love you always. Miss you so much and I wish us to be together sooner than later. xoxox your baby girl.
Helen Keller
The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched - they must be felt with the heart.
Helen Keller
Sep 13, 2006
Miss U (Like Usual)
Sep 6, 2006
The Ant And The Contact Lens
Sep 5, 2006
I'll Be Over You
Some people close their eyes
Some peoples destiny
Passes by
There are no guarantees
There are no alibis
Thats how our love must be
Dont ask why
It takes some time
God knows how long
I know that I can forget you
As soon as my heart stops breakin
Anticipating
As soon as forever is through
Ill be over you
Remembering times gone by
Promises we once made
What are the reasons why
Nothing stays the same
There were the nights holding you close
Someday Ill try to forget them
Someday Ill be over you
Sep 4, 2006
Thought Of You
Wish U Were Here
Sep 3, 2006
Through Glass
This is a new song from Stone Sour I heard on the way home tonight from the ----- fire. The italicized lyrics make me think of you. Looking the glass reminds me of looking at your picture(s). I miss you so much, I just wish this could all be a bad dream and I'd come home and you'd be waiting for me. And this would all be just a big mistake. I wish so bad. I love you always and forever.....no one will ever compare to you. So much love, your baby girl.
Through Glass by Stone Sour
Through Glass
I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
Oh God it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head
How do you feel, that is the question
But I forget you don't expect an easy answer
When something like a soul becomes initialized
And folded up like paper dolls and little notes
You can't expect a bit of hope
So while you're outside looking in describing what you see
Remember what you're staring at is me
'Cause I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home,
sitting all alone inside your head
How much is real, so much to question
An epidemic of the mannequins contaminating everything
When thought came from the heart
But never did right from the start
Just listen to the noises
null and void instead of voices
Before you tell yourself
It's just a different scene
Remember its just different from what you've seen
I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
And all I know is that it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home,
sitting all alone inside your head
'Cause I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
And all I know is that it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home,
sitting all alone inside your head
(Refrain)
And it's the stars
The stars that shine for you
And it's the stars
The stars that lie to you
I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
Oh God it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home,
sitting all alone inside your head
'Cause I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home,
sitting all alone inside your head
(Refrain)
And it's the stars
The stars that shine for you
And it's the stars
The stars that lie to you
(Repeat 1)
Who are the stars?
Who are the stars?
They lie…